"In the post-meditative experience become a child of illusion" is a slogan from the Tibetan mind training tradition. We engage the world as we experience it all the while realizing that reality is not as it seems to be.
This is exactly how I feel about my own medical care. I'm likely walking around with untreated diabetes even now. I'm too terrified to have the test done to see if I'm diabetic at all. I saw what Dad went through...ugh.
If you saw what your dad went through, that's all the more reason to get tested right away. The sooner you get it under control/managed, the better. Please do it, Tracie!!!
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